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Dear blog,

it's been a while since I felt yet another heartache, it's been a while since a a tear have rolled over my cheek. it's been a while since I felt like a normal teenage girl suffering from emo sh*tness. I'm on the verge of exploding and yet again she has no clue about it, on the brighter side I'm also happy at least I know I'm still susceptible to pain after months of experiencing pure bliss. I like this tag line from the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind "I already forget how I used to feel about you" I don't want to feel this but she seems to be pushing me to feel that way. Yeah I know we are a living contradiction but I also believe that opposite attracts We have proven that to be true after we decided to become lovers but seems as though the sparks are finally loosing their their shine in our relationship. My heart is turning into ice unable to feel and give anything and it sucks.

She doesn't understand me the way she used to, She don't and never tries to understand me. I thought she knew me I thought I knew her.

I want an anesthesia injected to my heart so that it will permanently stay cold and numb, I want to divert my attention to bear with this suffering. I don't want to forget you don't make me.

If only I could turn back time lalala...