panda on my mind

I want an anti obsessor NOW as in today ASAP. I really can't decode why I'm behaving so bratty and childish when it comes to dealing with things that involves panda. I mean I'm used to some occasional disappointments and ruined expectations every now and then but when panda is the one who can't keep up with my ridiculous demands and towering expectations I turn into a monster. I can't help it, Even if I know that everytime I do things such as being sarcastic,mean and cold hurts panda deeply I just can't stop, at the back of my mind my pride is telling me that I should get what I want no ifs and buts. That I should be panda's TOP PRIORITY period.

I'm really guilty of being a selfish lover added to that also an obsessed one. I dunno if this feeling is still normal or right but what can I do my system is so used to being with panda, dealing with panda,caring for panda,loving panda. That I can't bear it if I don't see panda even for just a single day.That whenever I get turned down by her I became a monster, giving panda a cold shoulder treatment and crocodile tears.

tell me is this normal?

is this still love?

where can I get an anti obsessor. I need it badly NOW.