read between the lines

I'm losing all the patience my fragile heart can hold. I can't bear to live like this being burdened every time something goes wrong. I want to muster enough courage and try even just try to step one foot forward. I know its crazy just merely thinking about it but it feels like I've had enough. I have a headache and its painfully annoying, I need inspiration a fresh brand new start. I don't want to be the aim of nonsense complications. I want my individuality back even for just 1 hour because I felt like I've lost it the moment we shared bad faith.