that's what you get when you let your heart win...

I'm bothered with things that I myself can't define. I'm tired of being useless of being nothing.I'm sick of being a burden especially to people who means so much to me. Maybe I need to find myself, know myself better first before entering commitments but no my heart, my emotions contradicts what my mind is commanding me, even though my mind bears a minimum amount of logic it has instincts, it knows when to stop.it knows when it's time to get over- to get it done with.

but then again and again my heart wins this never ending battle with my mind.I don't know if this is right,I want to fix this I really want to. I'm always facing the fact that yes I committed betrayal once and I'm guilty of being unappreciative but then again I'm always hoping and wishing for forgiveness and acceptance which up until now is not in my hands.

If you only know how much it pains me every time I am reminded of the drastic things that I have done,of the neglects that I have shown you. But it seems like you don't even have the time to notice my efforts.

I wish I could sleep tonight...

clueless.

just a while ago I was comforted with the thought of utterly pure bliss and relief but right then and there an unfathomable idea struck me far more worse than guilt.

It's as if I'm lost in a labyrinth..my instinct is tugging my mind that there is something wrong..I don't want to conclude but these are just plain and mere observations.

I hate guessing,I loathe perceiving,I am disgusted with the idea of half knowing

I don't want to be played upon again by my mind. :(

side effect ng kimi wa petto sa utak ko

Tick.click.clunk demmit this is still not good enough not even worth glancing upon.delete.erase hmmm...After almost 15 minutes of re typing and deleting words.sentences.phrases still I cannot comprehend and alter my brain to produce heart melting,eye popping hmp no I should not write to please other people's expectations or even to be judged.

Love stories..romantic movies..Everytime I finished watching movies,series about love wheter it be a sad and painful or a happy ever after ending I always end up craving for more seriously I want to decipher the different dimensions and uncertainties of loving.Call me a sentimental freak but i'm a heart on my sleeve kind of person.cheesy lines make me smile,sappy songs moves me and make me think heck even tag lines of romantic movies even gets me.

Maybe because it's so damn hard to find someone who can see right through you,looks inside your soul and knows you perfectly well.Someone you love for no reason at all because reasons are just like excuses.Someone who will stay :)

and I'm really glad I found ONE.

NIRVANA :)

matapos ang matitinding pagsubok

sa wakas pagkatapos ng walong buwan nakamit ko na din ang aking inaasam...

naabot ko na din ang plurk NIRVANA

abaaa..hnd ka naniniwala ....

ayan ang pruweba oh!*turo sa baba*

weee! ang saya saya

panda love

*turo*
base sa nakikita niyo sa itaas masayang masaya ang panda :)

siguro nagtataka kayo bakit?

kasi binisita ako ng itlog/panda love dito sa bahay namin ^_____^ nakilala na niya ang aking tatay, mga kapatid (love stureey,sharmaine)at mga pinsan (aleah and gab) kahit na may kaunting white lie ang pakilala ko sa kanya *ahem* XD haha nakakatuwa dahil nakasundo niya yung mga kapatid at pinsan ko lalo na si ineng (maarte)hahaha...goodshot siya kay epi yis!so kahit kelan pwede na siya magpabalikbalik dito sa bahay namin :))

oi panda kung nababasa mo ito thankyou sa effort mo para puntahan ako kahit di mo kabisado kung saan lupalop ako ng pilipinas nakatira pumunta ka pa din ang saya saya ko kanina parang ayaw na kita pauwiin hehe...I LOVE YOU! *gulong panda*